I got a job liao and have worked for a week. The job scope is not too demanding but den the pile of work never seemed to be done. Filing and filing and filing... And isolated from the rest of the people too coz i have my 'own room' (Actually is de private and confidential docs storeroom.. lol). I dun really have the chance to get to know my colleagues better and i am like the only temp staff der so there isnt ppl of my age lor. Working under HR sounds cool hor though i m only a admin assistant der (one who dun need/have the chance to touch de comp). The colleagues i m working with or rather helping to ease their workload or do stuffs dey are quite sick of are really very nice to me. They treated to small stuffs though i just knew them for a few days. Though they tried to involve me into their conversation bt there are still times when i really cannot think of a topic to talk to them. Different job scope and different generation. Another reason is bcoz i m an introvert. Sometimes i really wan to break out of this shell but i dunno how to go abt doing it. Like one of my fren says: 你是那种慢热的人啦. Ppl who dun really know me will think of me as a quiet and worse still, a gentle person. Like wow. But maybe I am really someone likedat but there are ppl who strongly objected to dat lorr. I m really dat opposite meh. I think sometimes i m really very quiet lor. Introvert ma. Gentle arr... dat one really dun suit me. Whenever i heard somethg like dat, I really feel like LOL lor. Going back to de topic abt my job, hmms.. i think i m able to work there happily until end july lor bt den i stil havent have de chance to see de 'big boss' yet coz when i started working der, she was on a 1 wk leave. The others called her monster lor. I shall see for myself how scary she is. The typical 8.30 to 6 job perhaps is more suitable to me as compared to others. Weekends r somethg i look forward to. haha. Coz more time to slp and use comp. Just like when i was still schooling, weekends r de times dat ppl would look forward to. This dun imply i dun like my job la. haha. I actually like it.(Isolation is not de part dat i like lar bt den it can be a good thg lor. hee. u can jump and dance ard in de room w/o ppl seeing. Except some of the times dey need to check some stuff. But den of coz i dun do dat when i work lar. lol)

My tennis skill still not der yet. My passion not as intense when i just started but of coz i wun give up likedat - After investing in a racket and de course. Oh yar.. btw de coach says de string on my tennis racket use for fishing de. Okay lor.. ppl poor mah so no money to buy freaking ex de. Besides dat i m going to take up a korean lang lesson. Just to pei my fren and it's only de basics. It's also not a really formal course. It's taught by someone who just wan more exp in teaching de lang so that he can go and teach in cc. That's why it's only $5 an hour and for me it's more to have fun by learning somethg new. I am too into jap stuffs liao so if i m really investing in a lang course, it will definitely be jap de. I think my jap craze is just beyond my control. I m also considering whether to take up hiphop. It starts next mon lor. hmms. I m scared i m cramming myself up with too many things at once.

I dun think i have really changed bah. Still as abnormal as usual lor but my views and opinions on some stuffs have certainly changed. haha. 我不晓得这改变对我未来会有怎样的影响, 对我以后处事待事的态度会有何变化, 但是这个改变却让我感到比以前更踏实多了, 因为...我不再相信莫须有的事物, 不再去做虚无缥缈的追逐.

我知道的事情比你想像还多. 就因为我知道, 所以对待你的方式无法像以往一样. 我知道自己应该拿得起放得下, 过去的事不去追究, 但我却做不到. 也许我就是那么小心眼的人吧.