Everythg seemed to be in a mess. The courses i wanted to tk up, my job, chingay which is almost everythg in my post 'A' activities. Either sumthg went wrong wif my time management or my hesitant decision making process or both. After A lvls shld be a time to relax rite bt why i m so bothered by everythg. Things doesnt seem to go right or rather my way. I was gg to quit chingay bcz i was afraid i couldnt commit bt i stil manage to cheng guo qu with lack of slp. For the signing up of de courses i dragged til de last min cz hafto ensure dat everyone else can make it bt thgs dun always go our way. I dun wan to kp dragging or else i could gt nth done. So i decided to sign up alone bt den der was no vacancy alr. Also, I seriously dunno wad to do wif my job. My frens, my parents & myself, wad shld i do? This is de first time i tink losing weight is scary cz i haf been wanting to shed off sum flab in de past but nw i jus wan to maintain it. Pls no more losing weight. And i wan to gt thgs done.

Last sat was finalli chingay training in dunno how many wks. Abit inefficient. We alr planned to rch late by an hr bt in de end rch late by 2hrs cz i was de one who were later. Both of us slpt super late de nite b4 bcz i was hesitating if to quit. The lack of slp also caused me to spout rubbish & for yl's case she bcame quite bitchy. Actuali not reali spouting rubbish lar bt is de stuff i normalli wun say when i m mentally awake. Yl cant stand me bah. I tink in de chingay team's eyes, we r lyk some problematic ppl, not only nv punctual bt also dun pay attention. Whenever i haf work de day b4, i haf training bt when i m free de nite b4, there is no training. I was too tired to focus. I joined this activity full of enthusiasm bt i lost half de enthu-ness aft all de clashing & dragging of training. But after last sun fundraising i regained sum enthu-ness back cz i haf de chance to interact wif de exco & de vj junior i first met on sat. They r fun to talk to. I went fundraising half-dead too cz i left my workplace ard 6am due to sum stock checking problems. Reached hm lyk 7am. How would i noe de first train on sun would be so late. If i knew i wun insist to tk train.

My skin is uber awful now. Serious peeling. I m scared to go under de sun liao.

Why am i becoming more & more whiny? i cant stand myself.

I hope time will wash away this feeling cz i m unable to stop it wif my own will.

I went fishing wif my colleagues at pasir ris ytd & it's my first fishing trip. The thg i hated most abt de trip is dat i m awfully sunburnt. I dun even wan to get tanned in de first place esp when my skin get easily tanned & irreversibly too. And one more thg is dat my skin tone when tanned is not those nice bronze colour but is yellowish brown & weird. How could i forget to bring sunblock and cap. hais. Getting even tanner means i get further frm my goal. Haha. It's not difficult to guess wad i mean bah if u noe which goal i m referring to. Another sad thg is dat i caught zero fish bt it's stil okay since i m a newbie. My neko's 2nd time fishing & she caught 2 fish! Cats reali noe how to catch fish. lol. i wonder how it feels to catch one all by urself. At least i din go hm empty handed since dey gave me 2 fish. One more thg is dat my neko & me didn't have to pay maybe cz we dun look lyk we gg der to fish bt only as a bystander bt all de guys nd to pay. hee. $38 for 12 hrs lei. Broke ppl lyk me cant bear to spend so much. I haf to save up for my taiwan trip in early april.

我憎恨任意使用暴力的人, 即使是对一台机械, 我也不能容忍.

其实我很想像你一样, 不论做任何事都那么有冲劲, 不畏缩, 不惧怕, 一下定决心要做的事就会毫不犹豫地去办, 而且不易被动摇. 我也想做一个有主见的人.

Recently started watching a new anime. It was introduced by my bro de though he himself not watching. It's Kirarin Revolution & it's abt a gal's path to being an idol. An anime of pure cuteness. lol. I guess it shld be a shoujo anime too, jus like shugo chara. Also intro by my bro.

I guess my all-time fav show is stil detective conan bah. I finally watched de live-action movie which is made to celebrate de 10th anniversary of conan. I found de movie by accident when i was searching for de anime movie. The role of Kudo Shinichi is played by Oguri Shun, de lead of hana kimi. A different feel frm when he starred in hana kimi bt stil as cold as ever. Lol. Thinking sch activities r a waste of time & childish and pretending not to care when he actually does care alot. Looking at mysteries being solved is soo interesting & cool. Then u will start tinking : 'I nv would haf tot of dat' or sumthg. Maybe my fav genre is mystery but i dun wan horror-cum-mystery dat kind. scary. haha. Meitantei shinichi wa kakkoi des! Banzai!

Tdy went shopping wif yl. We were supposed to mit at 130 bt in de end met at 345. I tink she was alr der since 2pm bah. I felt q bad bt it's bcz she came frm some other places so i cant tell her wad time i was ready so she could leave her hse & my mum cooked lunch late. Anyway it's stil my fault. haha. Tdy i bought a black heels which is ard 6cm tall & my height after wearing it will be lyk 175cm? lol. And a reali nice flats to replace de worn one. Hais... I stil hate shopping for shoes. I also bought a white jacket so i finally haf one proper jacket ever since mine was 'destroyed' during de xmas countdown 2006. A 'lucky' day too. When i was walking on de street, bird shit landed on my arm. eewww...

I discovered another diff betw jap & taiwan hana kimi. For de jap's case, de whole school found out abt mitsuki's secret of disguising as a boy & she left de sch & went back to america but for de taiwan's case, she wasn't exposed & if i m not wrong, she didn't go back to america. Bt overall, it seems lyk taiwan follow de manga more closely. No matter wad, always rmb : 'Anata wa hitori ja nai.'

Lol. Once u haf a day off frm work, u feel reluctant and lazy to step out of de hse to go back to work.

Last sat was camwarrior outing to sakae sushi wif 5/6 of de ppl present. The sakae we went to is quite ulu cz it is near cpf building. I rched lyk 1++ hrs ltr den de time we r supposed to mit. i dun tink i ate enough to make my money worth leh. lol. nana is a salmon freak who kept ordering salmon. I dunno y i cant appreciate it. Unagi is quite nice, different frm wad yl say. After dat we went to suntec fountain wanting to c de mass dance bt it's over le & wad we saw is only them running ard de fountain lyk some siao kia, lyk wad we did last yr. lol. I miss mass dance. After dat nana & jon went off and i was itching to play arcade so yh hao xin acc me. haha. i realised i sucked at shooting game. Imagine me getting 16k & yh getting 50+k of points. Such a big gap. I wonder wad i was even aiming at. When i rched hm it's lyk 1130 ler. At least i made full use of my off-day.

I wonder if gt pet shop wan to hire me. Imagine seeing all de kawaii doggies & minis everyday u go to work. Omg.

The jap version of hanazakari no kimitachi is really diff from de taiwan version. From what i heard, de taiwan version follows de manga more closely while de jap one 'messed' some parts up. Nakatsu (Xiuyi) isn't supposed to know dat Mizuki (Ruixi) is a gal and some other parts here & der. haha. As what some pple haf said, perhaps there's more chemistry betw ella & wu zun. Hana kimi is being portrayed differently and it's kind of interesting to see both versions. One funny part of jap one is dat i haf seen 3 boy-kiss-boy scenes altogether from ep 1 to 10. They r quite open hor. lol. 2 more ep left for me to watch but i dun wan it to end.

Time indeed flies. It's alr de 3rd day of yr 2008. Hmm...new yr resolution? ~Live my life peacefully but not dully. ~Able to play hard & study hard in uni. (though uni only starts in july lol) ~Not to be soo blur. (like ytd lor..forget to get cab fare receipt..cant claim liao..) ~To have the opportunity to ride on the plane for the first time. ~To be more outspoken & less hesitant in the things i do.

On new year's eve, my job ended at 11 so i went to countdown wif my frens at vivocity. Initiali i wasn't able to get high cz i somehow screwed up at my job. I think i shld jus speak up so dat i do not gif de wrong impression. If u dun help urself, who will? But after dat i dun care ler so me & my frens jus kept screaming tgt wif the crowd. I think countdown-ing at vivo is better den marina bay cz u can see de hosts & singers live & de fireworks frm marina bay though we cant really see de hosts since we went quite late & were standing behind de stage.

Hmms.. camwarriors outing on sat is not confirmed yet. I wan to go out! I had a dream dis morning abt my job. It felt real. haha. I haf a strong urge to go on a shopping spree. Shopping mood is coming back!