Tis year i got de edusave...so i guess tis is de last yr where i can get edusave cz uni dun haf le mah...to be frank, i m quite proud of myself to be getting it since pri 1 every yr until nw.. bt it doesn't seem so for my parents... everytime i gt it...either dey say..' nw u gt money to buy de stuffs u wan ler..so dun nd to always gt money frm us' or somethg..or 'wad is de no. ar...wan to buy 4d' or 'even if ur studies gd oso no use..mus stay at hm do more housework'... i agree i m lazy n dun reali like doin housework except cooking... den sumtimes when i m stressed or in a bad mood..i will show some bad attitude.. den my dad will say 'if u study study until so stressed den dun study lar..nw i can go to ur sch n tell de principal dat u r quitting sch' or sumthg along dat line..actuali wad i nd is jus perhaps a few words of compliment or praise or somethg.. dat will make me feel happier.. i rmb in pri sch..whenever i join sports' day activity or sumthg..even if i won or sumthg..it doesnt really make a difference to them.. n even if in pri 6..when i got first for cross country gals.. naturally i will be q happy..n hope to share de happiness with dem..bt dey dun really care that much..jus orh..ok lar not bad.. all these thgs may not b somethg worth marvelling over..bt sometimes wad i need is jus a little encouragement or motivation.. even when i was little..i dun rmb any pat on my head or sumthg saying stuffs like 'well done'...'keep it up'.. Also, monetary rewards, i agree may not be a gd way to encourage ppl..bt der is no harm in doing dat once in a while.. when i was young n wan abit of money to buy stuffs.. my dad will nag n nag.. luckily my mum is more willing to give me..i noe my family is not rich bt sometimes dey would rather spend on 4d.. dats y i told myself dat i must be independent & be able to support my own expenses when i m old enuf to find my own job.. i know sometimes i really splurge bt it's oni once in a while..to reward myself.. one of de most tiring period dis yr is when i haf to cope with my studies, H3 lessons, SYF practices, Tks stuffs and my admin job...i noe it's abit siao lyk wad my frens say..bt i was tinking it's no harm to haf abit more allowance each wk..bt in march i was alr totally mentally n physically drained..so i decided to quit at de end of de mth..since i was facing problems in my studies & more significantly my cca.. some stuffs i guess r better to be forgotten..it's no use dwelling on wad haf alr happened.. Bcz of this..whenever i borrowed money..i will definitely return it asap.. unless i really forget it at times.. cz i noe de money i haf is hard-earned so is de same for other's.. so i get pissed when ppl borrow & find various reasons saying dat dey dun haf money currently & a few mths ltr it's stil de same..so i guess dat's called bad debts? bt money, as what my fren haf said..can hurt relationships at times.. so at times i wun dwell on it..cz money gone can be earned bt frens lost cannot be earned back easily.. so maybe bcz of that..i m always abit broke..
I was chatting wif my cousin online..i tink on sat's nite..den nw i started tinking of wad she says..it makes sense somehow.. y shld i create frustrations or make myself troubled over somethg which i can do w/o..it may also be better w/o it at de current pt in time..let nature takes its course..thinking abt it doesnt mean it will solve it.. tryin to do somethg abt it may upset de balance dat it is having nw.. so just kp it lykdat..& there's nth wr0ng abt it..
But some thgs u stil haf to do somethg to resolve it..otherwise u will be at fault for causing misunderstanding.. so i guess i will haf to find a way..escaping frm it by not responding like what my frens say won't solve it & it's a bad solution..so i shall see... ...
Wah..it's so late ler..i m supposed to slp earlier tonite to replenish de lack of slp last nite.. or else i may start to spout nonsense..cz my mind's not functionin well nw..
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