Stay Shiawase!~

End of yr 2

2010-05-09T02:11:00.002+08:00

It seems like my blog was dead for quite a while. haha. When u r busy, u gets lazy even to think of something to blog and u will end up preferring to rot in front of comp playing fb when u r free.

Time to have lots of sleep... after all the exams and buyo workshop. =)

来学期は忙しいかどうかわかりません。でも、私は次の学期６モデュールをしたい。

日本語が大好きですよ。私は流暢な日本語で誰かに毎日話をしたい！！！

2010-02-28T04:45:00.005+08:00

What should u do if someone ignores ur apology becos u apologise for the wrong thg and then when u apologise again, this time for the correct thg, the person refuses to accept it?

You know it's not ez to acknowledge ur own mistakes and to even apologise for it. R u denying my apologies becos i apologise too easily this time? When u're tired, natural instincts tell u that u need to sleep. But i deny my own instinct to hear more from u, and this is what i get?

It's soo unfair....

Stupid recess wk!

2010-02-27T18:26:00.003+08:00

The wrongly scheduled recess week is putting a toll on me! During this recess week, everything is not in full swing yet and u r not totally sure what u need to do. Recess week is supposed to be the time when u prepare for ur mid-terms. Now it's like mid-terms and deadlines approaching! There are 2 projects which i havent started on. 7 more labs!

Not busy alr lazy to blog le. Like wad yl says, my blog alr update once every month. Now, I wonder, when will my next blog session be? lol.

Despite being bz and stuffs, I m contended with what i have now. 君があるから。

2010-02-18T00:13:00.002+08:00

maybe i do work better alone. So perhaps it will be better if i m left alone.

2010!

2010-01-03T00:16:00.004+08:00

I realise i haven't blog for quite time. lol.

Anyway, now is 2010! New year resolution. The same old things lo.
Good results, r/s with ppl - frenship, kinship, etc, leveling up my jap lang, learn guitar, have fun!

In just one sentence, "To enjoy every single day and everything i do!"

Somehow it is a year i feared slightly. Cos i m turning 21, which means most of my frens are turning 21. Does this mean that it will burn a super big hole in my pocket? lol.

Going broke

2009-12-21T23:34:00.005+08:00

I need to keep a close watch on my finances. Dead!

This whole week i m gg out, i wonder if there is any way that i could cut down on my expenses. hais.

Pay no heed, cos wad matters most is what i think.

犹豫。

Holidays

2009-12-18T01:27:00.002+08:00

I realise i have been so lazy to blog. haha.

Anw, something super random. I finally found out the reason b4 my lappie lagging when i watch HD vids on youtube or play flash game. The reason being: My lappie is always on powersaver mode, regardless on battery or ac mode. I nearly wanted to reformat my lappie lo. ONE YEAR of possessing this lappie and it's only today then i found out just chging the mode helps alot!!! Now it doesnt lag alr! I am saved by this random conversation of talking about lappie with my fren. wahahaha.

This hols, i had my fair share of nuaing, stoning, loitering, shopping, anime-ing, drama-ing (actually only liar game up till now), bonding with momo-chan, studying bits of nihongo and bonding with my lovely frens and also with 君. Oh yarrr, my first encounter with meteors. One word, COOL! Thanks to yl's brilliant idea. (Initially i was really too lazy to go out and really tot it's not possible to be able to see... Oops.. It's not supposed to be said out.)

But now thinking back wad i have done for the past few weeks, i haven't really done much. I think, i did nua too much. Really doing practically nth. Just walk here and there with nth much in mind wad i wan to do. Procrastination is really becoming part of me (actually it alr was =X)

End of exams!!

2009-12-02T23:26:00.001+08:00

試験が終わる！！！

Time to enjoy~~~

无可奈何

2009-11-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

当你感到无奈时, 会做些什么呢? 这样说似乎有点自相矛盾, 因为无奈的主要来源之一是束手无策. 我们都知道当某些事无可奈何的时候, 能做的只是叹气, 接受现状. 既然事情已演变到此地步, 况且有些事包括友谊在内,是强求不来的, 我只好默默接受吧. 为此事而郁闷, 烦躁, 应该有个限度吧. 也许我过于敏感了. 我想我也是累了.

2009-10-17T00:35:00.002+08:00

Yay!!!! Performance ended! 楽しい！

And thanks to the cameraman!　お疲れ様でした＝）

Time to list down how many thgs undone=(

2009-10-16T08:34:00.001+08:00

Today is the day! =)

2009-10-11T09:14:00.003+08:00

来週上演ですよ。ちょっと怖がっている。でも、がばります！～
(Next week is the performance. I am abit scared. But i will jiayou!)

あなたに言う

2009-10-06T13:39:00.008+08:00

あなたに：　ケーキと花と手紙をもらった。嬉しいですよ。どうもありがとう＝）
すみません。手紙じゃない。カードです。
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今二十歳です。もう若くない！T.T
(Now i m 20. Not young already.)

私の人生の大切な人、ありがとうね！
(Everyone who is impt in my life, thank you!)

梦

2009-09-28T20:07:00.008+08:00

My english cui-ed. Today i asked a question, "What is the opposite of alight? Is it just 'get on'? No other words right?" At that time, i was running jap thru my mind and i came across those words in jap. What if someday my japanese surpass my english??? And greedy me still want to learn korean. lol.

其实处理每一件事情，时机挺关键的。虽然你会常听见，"Nothing is ever too late。" 事实并非如此。这只是个较乐观的想法，但我也不会一口咬定每一件事都没有补救的余地。可是如果当初。。。。。。

有人常说，“梦”与你的下意识息息相关。日有所思，才会夜有所梦啊。可是我们也知道，有些梦简直太荒谬了，梦境不可能在现实生活中上演。兜了一大圈子，其实我想说的是，我不晓得这连续三天所做的梦想要传达怎样的讯息，我也不明白做此梦的源点何在。在这三个梦里，主角虽相同，但扮演的角色却大有不同。有哭，有笑，也有劝说。梦啊梦啊，请不要再突袭我了吗？你确实让我措手不及和感到些许的心烦。

我希望你幸福。

黑夜已来临

2009-09-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

当不幸迈着嘈杂的脚步，当幸福一路呼啸着向我们奔来，我们除了默默承受，也不能忘记给自己留一只清醒的耳朵：即使黑夜已来临，所有的梦想都沉睡，你也应该把耳朵叫醒。——把耳朵叫醒，然后，倾听世界。相信，总有一个声音属于成功。

黑夜已来临,黎明还会远吗?

2009-09-19T01:58:00.003+08:00

二十一

这内心的挣扎，几时才能摆脱它，我能够继续压抑多久。。。想依赖时间找到那所谓的解脱，这想法未免太单纯了。

Ambivalence

2009-09-13T12:25:00.000+08:00

Ambivalence

1. uncertainty or fluctuation, esp. when caused by inability to make a choice or by a simultaneous desire to say or do two opposite or conflicting things.
2. Psychology. the coexistence within an individual of positive and negative feelings toward the same person, object, or action, simultaneously drawing him or her in opposite directions.

I always see this in my AR readings. Hmm... 2nd meaning is interesting.

わらってください

2009-09-12T21:43:00.001+08:00

无法磨灭的烙印。。。

なかないでください。。。　。。。　

わらってください =)

Laogong, i love u lots as always!<3

Cute MV

2009-09-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

小小渝鬧鬧 ft.sweety

I just happened to come across this mv again. Found the song and the mv cute. haha.

My own life!

2009-08-30T14:57:00.008+08:00

FOUR goals in my life at the moment:

Studies (obviously right. No choice.), Japanese=), Buyo and Guitar!

Nothing can sway my will to live on. And dignity? It depends on how u define ur "dignity".
Nobody else can give u your dignity.

Miscommunication, misunderstanding takes 2 hands to occur and obviously 2 hands to resolve. But what should u do if the other hand refuse to comply and choose to go in its own way? Nothing much right? Assumptions will continue to be assumptions and i will continue to be amazed by those. haha. What matters is that at least u tried.

My blog name is chosen with a high degree of selectivity cos i like fuwa fuwa name, so most likely it will stay with me to the end regardless of what might happen in the future. Becos this is how i am and i have nth to hide such that i have to abandon this past of mine in order to move on.

And to end off, I have great PI skills (not just self proclaimed one). Its proven! I will know the thgs that i wan to know=)

2009-08-26T20:45:00.000+08:00

I seem to be getting the hint.

11 more days....

Alignment

2009-08-22T00:35:00.001+08:00

The alignment of stars. A eclipse? Precision do matter i guess. haha.

Just Friends

2009-08-14T20:57:00.001+08:00

Just Friends - Vanessa Williams

I just happened to see this MV at Cathay after watching UP today. The catchy tune and charming singer managed to capture my attention and that led me to searching for her MV on youtube. haha.

Nihon, banzai!

2009-08-13T22:27:00.000+08:00

My life is filled with Jap now! 9 hours of jap lessons per week PLUS many hours of nihon buyo! I am performing nihon buyo on stage soon and volunteering for Jap Association to dress up people in yukata! I get to interact with so many Japanese too. However, with my cui jap lang, i can't understand even a quarter of what they are saying and this gives me the motivation to work even harder in my jap in order to be at least on par with my seniors' current jap standard someday! I m enjoying all these, TOTALLY=)

Sorry

2009-08-08T01:08:00.002+08:00

除了对不起, 我不知道自己能说些什么...

谢谢你的谅解, 宽容与大方和你给予我的空间.

Truthful?

2009-08-06T15:05:00.000+08:00

I realise i can never hide anythg for long. Being so truthful most of the times, i wonder is it always a good thing?

Don't ask me anythg, becos i dunno it myself too...

八月一日

2009-08-02T16:17:00.002+08:00

はちがつついたち... For people who don't know jap, when u see this... u will be like.... Seems soo long sia. Chim. Then if i type in kanji, it's actually just 八月一日. lol.

あるいて。。。 i will never forget this word liao.

歩く【あるく】 (v5k,vi) to walk;
あなたは歩いて行きますか。それともバスで行きますか。 Will you go on foot or by bus?

During the test, I kept thinking the meaning isit walk or drive? How can they test something that is not in the vocab list! If they have written the word in kanji, then i would have known what it meant. Grrrrr.........

Ytd when i walked past guitar shops, i would just go in and take a look. There is this shop in bras basar which i think sells branded guitar.. Sooo ex lor, average around $1k de!　There arent any designs that particularly strike me anyway. Then i walked past another shop in esplanade. The guitar which struck my eyes and captured my attention almost immediately, cause $412 ONLY due to moving out sales. The original price was $599 leh! I was really really really tempted to buy. OMG. But of cos, i cant just succumb to impulse buying like that. そのguitarはかっこいです。 I am still tempted. Better not let me see it again.

Talking about language, I heard there is this buyo senior who knows 5 languages and is rather fluent in them; English, Chinese, Thai, Jap and Korean. I was wow-ed by this lo! Now i am getting greedy. I want to be continue my korean too! (But i know not possible la. Busy enough with jap liao.) Then a random thought flashed through my mind, "Is engin really for me?" I have thought of being a translator before lo. haha.

Different

2009-07-30T21:43:00.001+08:00

Some things just feel different. It's unlike that time, those other times...

Maybe it just takes time to restore things to how they were... or maybe more than that?

I wonder.....

Grad Dinner

2009-07-26T05:22:00.000+08:00

Yay! My role as a PD is over! Conclusion is... Leading is really not my style. A good supporter != a good leader. haha. Childhood dreams is indeed a fun theme and I enjoyed seeing what the seniors wore. The performances damn zai too can. Most memorable one... done by David, seetoh and peach. lol. I should be tired but yet i havent sleep! 5.30am le! It must be due to the post-project euphoria. heeeee.

Cliche as it might sound, but i still wanna say.... "Grad Comm, I love u guys" =)

Back from 4D3N!

2009-07-24T12:12:00.002+08:00

I am back from chess camp! Before continuing my grad dinner project, I shall have a long nap, to replenish the worsened sleep debt that I have accumulated consecutively for 5 nights.I shall gather the energy to spring back to my project full of enthusiasm and life. Thanks to everyone who worked hard for this project despite my absence and made it even better. Tomorrow's the night!

A timely departure, a well deserved break.. or a confusion?

Trailing off to my lalaland... ...

Lollipop

2009-07-19T15:08:00.004+08:00

If u need entertainment, here's one of them:

=) A crazy bunch of people.

生日的那一天

2009-07-17T03:54:00.006+08:00

生日.. 是一个特别的日子,一年一次的日子. 发生了完全没有的预料的事.领导人的重担, 无奈的愧疚, 烦躁的情绪. 使我在这特别的日子暴发了. 明明不想说的, 在那气氛下却露出了馅. 那压抑以久的情绪与不愉快, 毫无保留地说了出来. 其实事情并非如此, 根本就没有必要那样夸大的.是那郁闷的气氛所逼的.事情总是要在不恰当的时候发生.我也不明白当天自己的忍耐度为何那么有限. 就把一切归咎于压力吧. 有一部分也许是自找的.

彼此都在努力, 在为此奋斗, 战胜时间的考验.彼此都看得出.

可是几时我会说...我累了?

Materialising my goal

2009-07-12T15:30:00.002+08:00

For every goal, there is a need to set a timeline for it to materialise. Right? So i shall set as.. hmms.. Before my 21st bday, I would have established my band!

Nana, it's reasonable right? =)

Missing out the fun

2009-07-09T14:05:00.003+08:00

When I m missing out the fun, i wondered why. Then as i wonder why, i realised why. When i realised why, i asked myself why i excluded myself. Now i know why. It's bcos of the priorities i set.

Sometimes i will think.. and i will end up disliking myself and the decisions i made.

ESE camp

2009-07-09T01:22:00.004+08:00

混乱。

搀杂在一起的情绪。

如果少了一点坚持，少了一点理智，少了一点责任感, 少了一点矜持，事情会演变到如何呢？

2D1N ESE camp is over! Slept 2 hrs and survived! I dunno y. Just cant get high during de camp wor, isit bcos of the role i m given, and hence I am not close to the juniors? Or is it I just don't feel like moving and prefer to enjoy the cool breeze?

Due to CAC camp, quite a few ppl got quarantined, mostly my year de. Perhaps if they were there at the start, I will try to get myself more involved. haha. But well, on the whole, I still find the camp okay la. lol.

Don't say Lazy

2009-07-03T11:26:00.013+08:00

Don't say Lazy

K-on ED song. All the instruments on display are soo cool. This gives me motivation to go on learning! I am starting with classical guitar first. Ytd i got the guitar and tdy i managed to figure out how to play up and down the scales!^^ (However, due to the low maintenance of the instru --> long time nvr use... 2 strings alr broke=X)

Quote

2009-07-01T12:35:00.002+08:00

I saw this quote.

"Don't make promise when you are in joy.
Don't reply when you are sad.
Don't take decision when you are angry.

Think twice... Act wise."

Haha. This is soo true right? lol. This will substantiate my actions for those who don't understand. LOL.

Band!

2009-06-27T08:28:00.004+08:00

I just realise I have forgotten to blog about somethg happening! haha. Sparked by nana's bf and the anime k-on, nana and me have decided to form a band! Not those orchestral band la. Its rock band kind, with the electric guitar, keyboard, etc... hee.

Let's hope this dream will fulfill someday.

So when's de concrete plan?? haha.

Anyone care to join??

Lalala~

2009-06-25T21:41:00.004+08:00

Something ppl definitely should do when they wan to agitate me..
1)Disappearing suddenly when i need to talk esp when there is no pre-agreed outing=)
2)Specially disappearing at the timing when i m not around =D
Then congrats.. It's successful.

I am not free too.. Bz going out with frens^^

Openness

2009-06-25T13:53:00.004+08:00

If there's something that people cant commit to it, y shld they even say it in the first place? By creating false hope, is it that fun? If their decision chg soo suddenly, we will want to know the reasons behind it.

If there's something that u wan to say, dun hide it behind ur obviously not-okay tone and that fake expression, i dislike things that way. When I ask, it means i really wan to know. I really dislike it.

Where is the openness in the communication?

Communication

2009-06-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

Communication is the key to everything but how do u make sure the communication is effective, without any miscomm?

I dislike how thgs are going now, even with the openness becos some thgs still feel weird. Isit just me?

Some things u just cant get enough of them, but some things u r just sick of them, bt they still happen.

Where do I get the motivation again?

很烦啦！

こころのこえ

2009-06-10T13:21:00.003+08:00

距离

要多少才公平...平衡点在哪里.

沟通

应该有多深...

思考

还是用潜意识来决定...

极限

谁能知晓...

感情

要用什么来衡量...

誰も知らない。私の心の声聞こえますか.

Thinking

2009-06-10T02:44:00.002+08:00

Thinking. Thinking and thinking.

Still thinking...... How many times should I say it to make it right?

Outdated post: Another month of time spent tgt=)

Promises??

2009-06-08T20:16:00.003+08:00

When u r jobless like me, after watching a few epi of animes and dramas, u will take a break and start surfing net aimlessly. Blog-hopping is one of the options. At times u will come across some emo posts, and using the little knowledge of the incident that u have, u start to piece them tgt. Then u will start thinking, "How come?", "why", "So who isit now?", "Whats wrong", "How isit now?". Things happen for a reason, we all know. Then being more kaypo, u will start thinking, "How come the situation wasnt salvaged in time?" then u started checking more, further in depth, hoping to piece up the jigsaw more nicely. U might not know the person personally but u will be curious to noe more. And u might start thinking, "Will it happen to me too?", "if it does, will the aftermath be the same?".

Sometimes I feel that ppl cant take a promise over seriously. We know a promise is a promise and of cos we will hope for it to be fulfilled. By saying this, I dun mean that people shld "spam" promises or we shld just trash it totally. It's just that by not hoping too much, when things dun happen the way u expected it to be, or unforeseen circumstances prevent it from happening, u wun be very devastated by the unexpected and sudden outcome. This explains why I don't really make promises. So when i dun say it, it doesnt mean I dun care. haha.

U will never know what will happen next, so live ur current life as enjoyable, 'high' and fully while u can!

On a sidenote, I hate his nonchalant attitude! But wad can I do? lol.

Post exam sian-ness

2009-05-30T22:23:00.002+08:00

I wonder whats wrong with the stupid weather!!! I feel warm whereever i go. Its driving me crazy. Even after bathing also warm.

3 weeks plus passed since my last paper, results alr out and i m still JOBLESS. I lowered my standard regarding pay per hour but still, no one wans to hire me. The job market is really very bad. I hope de recent case will lead to more job opening and higher chance of me getting those jobs=x I am horrible right??

I m getting more and more involved in jap stuffs. This makes me happy! I shall put my heart and commitment into them.

Grad dinner, my last welfare project. I cant afford to slack off! Wanna thank those people who made me extinguish the tots of quiting it by offering their kindest help and effort.

Pickpocketed

2009-05-24T04:22:00.005+08:00

Rawrrrrrrr!!! Someone pickpocketed my phone! Horrible lor. My travel from bugis to city hall is soo disastrous. Should i blame it on de huge crowd of people squeezing into the train, causing us to be packed like sardines or my carelessness/lack of consciousness? Sianned. But okay la. I din feel as bad as I tot last time i would when my frens lost their phone. I tot i wud cry but well, I din even shed a single tear. haha. Maybe cos i dun really like that phone or thanks to the company(Don't say i evil hor)?? But i still wan to curse the person who pickpockted me! HOHOHO. U shall suffer horribly for ur actions~

This is de first time in my life dat i lost my valuables and its stolen. Hmph!

Sentence

2009-05-22T23:24:00.001+08:00

This sentence captured my attention in Atashinchi no Danshi=)

The girl said, "Facing each other means u might both hurt each other, or end up hating each other" Then he disagreed and said, "no.. think pretending u understand somethg and not saying anythg is a lot more worse."

This is soo true right. haha.

Comparison

2009-05-18T11:57:00.003+08:00

Nana is right. Don't think too much about wad should be done. Dun compare the 'should' u seen in other examples and the 'must-do'. Bcos things are just different. The 'should' will give u a false impression of wad things will be like when in fact, it doesn't have to be that way. Just bcos other people fulfill the 'should', it doesn't mean that everyone else has to.

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For 'that' issue, it seems like there's no solution to it at the moment. It depends on which party wakes up to it first. It seems like now she is alot more tolerant to it than me. Then it should be fine lor. We will just treat it as a drama playing and i suppose, we just see things as it goes bah.

MVs!

2009-05-17T13:57:00.004+08:00

I shall feature these MV on my blog! VJ rocks=)

VJC Music Fest 09 MV winners! Nobody - 08House Committee

VJC Musicfest 2009 MV finalist - XSSS

Lastly, my new favourite song thanks to the "Nobody" winning MV!

Holidays!

2009-05-09T19:06:00.003+08:00

Exams are over!!! Haha. 3 months of hols.... Time to find a job.

6 May.
Yet another month=)

7 May.
Went to watch jc bands syf. Shan't comment on the results since it's soo screwed. lol. I miss playing my horn:( "Play like a spartan warrior!" haha. This is random.

9 May.
There are some thgs u dun feel like doing anymore but u just have to continue. Otherwise I will just be like the person who dumped this responsibility on me and MIAed. If u dun feel like doing something, say from the start. Avoiding phone calls, ignoring emails don't mean anythg until we hear directly from u dat u want to quit doing it. Horrible! Ur lack of enthusiasm and responsibility makes me even regret doing it from the start. I thought I was nice enough to even give chances and helping to churn out proposal even though I m just an assistant. One of the rare few in my life who has the ability to piss me off to such a level. Maybe should congratulate that person.

2009-04-17T23:58:00.002+08:00

我想，这是暴风雨前的宁静吧。也许是我一直在欺骗自己事情有了好转，已归原道了。其实并非如此。也许是我选择逃避事情的真相，忽略了此事的严重性，主要原因应该是现在不是最佳处理事情的时候，不是因为我不在乎。可是即使是，我认为我的介入只是无助于事。看着她的无奈，自己的无助，我该如何是好？现处于烦躁，纳闷，严重mood swing状态的我，还是什么都不做最好。

2009-04-14T17:05:00.002+08:00

是因为彼此需求与要求上的分差吗?

一切是否已开始淡化，应该是我想太多了吧。

:)

2009-04-11T19:09:00.003+08:00

Seems like the worst i m expecting is not going to happen! Things are definitely changing for the better or rather going back to wad it should have been. I haven't confronted this issue yet and it seems perhaps there is no need for me to if it doesn't worsen again. It's definitely better if i dun have to do it cos it's a very very sensitive issue that may cause harmonious imbalance. haha:)

Random: Pillow fight is fun!

Toradora! Holy night

2009-04-11T19:03:00.004+08:00

This is one of my fav scenes in 'Toradora!'. Though the season is not here yet, hearing this song will still make u feel warm inside:) Holy night~ Enjoy!

心烦

2009-04-05T15:40:00.002+08:00

I wonder what do i actually wan? Wad do i need? Even i dunno it myself. I claimed to be understanding. But yet, i kept expecting slightly more. Then if i din get the reaction i expected, after doing something, i will end up becoming 心烦. When i think back abt the response that caused my 心烦-ness, I cant really pinpoint which part of de response causes it. 心烦 yet i noe i shldnt voice it out cos it may cause unneccessary arguement. Isit due to hormonal imbalance or just me in need of more attention? Dropping hints seem stupid as the other party may not get it but yet i couldnt just express it. It will just reflect on me as a unreasonable person. Anyway just treat this as a random post of a 心烦 person on a random rainy day.

纳闷

2009-04-02T00:26:00.003+08:00

事实永远都是残酷的。现在还无法确认什么，可是证据已渐渐地指向我怀疑之处。听到的，看到的，这一切都真实吗？以后还能像以往尊敬他吗？他在我脑海里那负责任，慈祥的模样已渐渐地褪色了，怎样才能恢复到以前那样？我该怎么向她交代，把我所听闻的告诉她？

轮到我出场了吗?我相信是吧。再多一点点的坚强，多一点点的勇气，我做得到!

丑事

2009-03-25T21:29:00.007+08:00

要怎样才能让自己更坚强一些？

为何我不像我哥一样，能对所发生的一切事无动于衷，保持冷静或冷漠的态度？为何要这么情绪化，难道纯粹是因为我是女生的关系吗？

我怎么可以这样地献丑，在公共场所，在陌生人的面前，怎么可以？制止不了的情绪，夺眶而出的泪水，怎么可以这么轻易地涌出来？连善心募捐的人都向我道歉，他根本没做错什么，也许有吧，那就是接洽错的对象，而且阻止不想停下脚步的我。你的善心之言找错了对象，不但如此还激发了我压抑已久的情绪，因为当时掠过我的脑海的竟是一些我尝试不去理会的事。为什么我唯一能说的就只是对不起。为什么无法控制自己的情绪。

如果今天没发生此事，我根本不晓得自己内心原来是那么的脆弱，懦弱。看来我一向来太高估自己了。那些因我那飘浮不定，高低起伏的情绪所影响的人，抱歉了。

明天将会是新的一天，抹去前一天发生的事，继续地微笑。这才是我，对吧？

Moody

2009-03-10T00:10:00.003+08:00

Pardon me if i m moody at times. I think awhile later shld be okay ler. I think its this period of time bah. When i m moody, i tend to be grumpy, easily frustrated,whiney or just stony. Stony-ness as seen obviously from today's mle tutorial. I m definitely not a free rider! Being arrowed just racks my nerve.

The storm is due to low EQ on both parties? Is there any way that can raise a person's EQ? Rarrrrr. Anythg just dun involve or drag me in. There's a limit to what my ears can withstand. If there is a need, i will just buy a good pair of ear plug.

On the other hand, showered with plenty of sweets and chocolates, an evil pok is obviously trying to stuff me with calories and fattening me up! haha. Somethg to keep me smiling amidst all de other irritating stuffs:)

Storm

2009-02-24T01:12:00.002+08:00

I sense a storm brewing and i m not certain how hard this storm will hit when it comes. I shant interfere and it's not up to me to decide or do anythg. My stand on it is, "If things are not within my control, I shall let nature takes it flow." I wonder... Am i too carefree over this issue?

"Expect the worse and pray for the best" :) Thanks for always hearing me complain abt stuffs! lol.

Rest

2009-02-21T11:07:00.002+08:00

The bz period is starting or rather has started and i also dunno wad else to blog for the current period. Hmmm.. So for now, perhaps i will let my blog haf a rest until the mood to blog actually comes back.

-6 feb-
It's the start:)

Assurance

2009-02-03T01:16:00.003+08:00

Any thing I posted on 2 feb only applies to that day itself. Perhaps it was just the monday blues... haha.

Thanks for the assurance u gave me. I appreciate it alot!:)
~I will give faith a fighting chance and... given a choice, i will dance~

不安

2009-02-02T20:50:00.005+08:00

不安不知何时涌现, 一直扰乱我的思路, 像顽固的坏小孩一样怎么甩也甩不开. 我觉得现在所感受到的一切很不踏实, 犹如稍纵即逝的云朵, 不知随时会消失得不见踪影. 我收到我好友今天传来的简讯.我知道她因最近发生的事而闷闷不乐, 一直无法敞开心胸痛快地笑. 她告诉我, "我想要松手忘记, 可是很难办得到. 我希望我根本就没谈这场恋爱. 放手的确很痛苦." 虽然我一向都是个乐观主义者,会一直鼓励受挫的朋友们像我一样乐观处事, 可是有时侯我会停顿下来, 脑海里突然浮现各种想法, 悲观乐观, 一切搀杂在一起. 2008 年所发生的一切像录像机一样, 再一次地重播. 我知道当人类得到了, 就会很害怕失去, 我相信自己也是其中之一. 要怎样才能摆脱这不安? 是不是应该暂时后退几步?

出发点

2009-01-31T03:26:00.004+08:00

未来会发生的事, 无人能知晓。可是这不能成为不努力，得过且过的借口。未来靠自己创造，幸福由自己争取，成功靠自己打拼，虽然如此, 人却不是孤独寂寞的。我相信最后一句话不需要我多加解释吧。朋友及亲人的存在就能诠释一切了。

我的人生开启了新的一页，而且是没先例可循的哦。算是“菜鸟”吧。哈哈。让我们携手打造属于我们的未来。:)

h@nY Y@>| 要倒过来看哦。。。

2009

2009-01-20T20:00:00.004+08:00

Happy belated 2009! It's been a while since I blogged and there are people cui-ing me to blog alr. haha. This is my first entry of de year 2009. Hmm... what shall i blog about? It's not that there's nth in my life to blog about, just that wer shld i start from? haha.

It's semester 2 alr. 1 sem has swept by just likedat. First thg that comes to my mind is what comes to everyone's mind. To work harder! First week of sch should be a honeymoon week but yet it was kinda bz for me. CLP 2000 words essay, construction seminar, scholarship fair, esesc welfare stuffs like grad dinner and games day and lastly the start of my jap lessons! But well, 1st week is over alr but that doesnt mean that i can slack throughout de sem le. Clp, grad dinner, my '6th module' Jap:)and nihon buyo (jap dance), on top of studies. I have set my targeted cap. High so that even if i cant reach the sky, as least i can land on the clouds. I cant let my sponsor company down.

生活确实有了些改变. 虽然已接受与心领了, 但要再给我一点时间, 让我解决心中所残留的牵挂.不足之处要包容哦!

为二零零八画上句号。

2008-12-28T12:15:00.008+08:00

2008 hasn't been smooth sailing for me. I have even resented(abhorred or whatever term u wan to use) this year at some point in time. I wanted 2008 to pass quickly but i know that it's impossible and I just running away from the harsh reality.
我知道逃避是解决不了问题的。

经历了一波又一波的考验，我确实坚强了。可是这并不是轻而易举地熬过来的。当我觉得我已受够了，是该尝点甜头时，多一件事会浮现，扰乱我原以为平静的日子。人们不是常说苦尽甘来吗？面对接踵而来的考验，我常在想，我该怎样攀爬，越过这似万里长城般的高墙。精神上，心理上，心灵上的考验，有时让我分不清现实与梦境，因为偶尔我会想，这件事怎会发生在我身上。

差点就要闹上MOM(Hearing the name is just scary enough)，看着朋友无辜地被冤枉而停职，和朋友的纠纷而差点闹地不欢而散，因莫些事而愤愤不平与不甘心，感情事不慎的处理，妈妈的健康亮起了红灯，自己的健康也好不到哪里去，与友谊和陌生人这两岸徘徊着，接下来那晴天霹雳的成绩单而无法满足最低需求。有时我会想，我真的那么好欺负吗？命运在捉弄我吗，上天在跟我开玩笑对吧？泪库的容量是有限的。被这些不愉快与承重的过去拖累着，我该怎么向往2009，这新的一年？

可是悲观这个字眼一向都不属于我。我要感激陪我度过种种难关的朋友，没有你们，现在的我是否会自暴自弃？哈哈。我稍把事夸大了，不会那么严重吧？不管怎么说，我是个有理智的人嘛！看过我失去矜持冷静，差点就变得不可理喻的人，是否觉得我很恐怖呢？显现出我的另一面，我自己也感到paiseh.真是羞羞。不要躲避我好吗？毕竟我才19岁，对人世间的一切还不了解，所以要多体谅哦。（哈哈，我借此原谅我自己。）常言道，在学会疼惜或爱别人之前，必须先懂得爱惜自己，不是吗？

在此，我为二零零八年画上句号。憧憬着更美好的未来^^ I am looking forward to more fun filled uni days with all of u!（我忘了说，很开心认识你们！） Lets put our hands together and countdown for 2009!

牵挂是一种忧伤的幸福

2008-12-16T21:57:00.002+08:00

牵挂是一种忧伤的幸福

http://www.duwenzhang.com/wenzhang/shenghuosuibi/shenghuoganwu/20080730/13867.html

令人感触良多的散文:)

2008-12-12T19:01:00.003+08:00

Camwarriors stay-over success! The camwarriors' therapy does work. My job also started le and weekends start to have different meaning for me again. Today's fri. Rest day sure is good. haha.

破碎的友谊要怎样修复, 也许时间是最佳的良药. 回想起来, 我的举止行为实在可笑, 让我领悟这一点的人使我觉得自己确实是愚蠢的, 因为我问了不经三思的问题, 是那些你未必会得到真心答复的问题. 只要愿意放下,处事的方式会有所改变. 我明白了.

Bak kwa

2008-12-06T23:27:00.003+08:00

Someone was trying to tempt me with bak kwa when my house is just left with pathetic random tidbits. haha. I shall not waste his nice description of bak kwa.. too bad i din manage to capture down his commercial on video. One of my fav food is also bak kwa too lor. Buy bak kwa myself seems to be a little funny when it is more supposed to be like a gift from others. haha.

jason/guowei says:
my bak kwa is like a combination of sweet and savoury all mixed in one
jason/guowei says:
with the juicy succulent meat grinding against my teeth
jason/guowei says:
and with every bite, the taste just lingers onto every portion of my tastebud

Can go and 打广告 le hor? haha.

Namida

2008-12-03T21:17:00.003+08:00

Exams are over ytd! Finally. haha.

I shall post this lyrics up.

-Namida- by 2Backka of "Skip Beat!" anime

No matter how many thousands of times I've cried
I'll always get over it
I can't act stupid to escape it
That kind of situation, you understand, right?
Now it's the last time, the last chance
Even if it fails, don't be scared
Being sad or depressed
Or having loved, there'll be a day
When you're cured
In those days when things don't go according to plan
The feeling of being deceived
It's like something being broken
The tears begin overflowing
It's impossible to be unaffected
It's impossible to show a frank face
If I'm always avoiding it
Thinking about it even now I won't stop
It's not finished
It can't be finished
Nothing has even started
The answer hasn't been received
I can't give up
I haven't even felt the significance, meaning and happiness of my existence
Something anyone needs
I'm waiting for my tomorrow
Stepping over those crying over and over days
I'll become strong
I shouldn't pretend to be stupid to escape it
That kind of situation, you understand, right?
Being put down many thousands times
I'll always get over it
Your voice will arrive, right?
No matter where
It will be heard immediately.

I like songs with meaningful lyrics.
Dakara akiramete nai:) (So don't give up!)

Jobjobjob

2008-11-25T22:22:00.002+08:00

Should I say yay for getting a job even b4 exams end? Or should I sigh? How could I even accept a job offer without asking for permission from my sponsors! What if my sponsors end up giving a 'no' for my vacation job? Does that mean I will lose the trust of my employer? Haiss. Hope I will get a favourable reply from my sponsors. I wan a job to earn $$! Haha. Esp in this financial crisis. $7/hr leh. Why not?

2008-11-24T10:29:00.004+08:00

服兵役的哥不在, 在医院治疗中的妈也不在. 我应该庆幸有这片宁静, 还是让自己渐渐被一个人在家的那份寂寞感吞噬. 当事情接踵而来时, 我应该如何应对, 如何继续保持着脸上的笑容.

其实没有我你分不出那些差别, 结局还能多明显.

不争气的我

2008-11-22T23:12:00.007+08:00

我已经无法再掩饰内心真实的情感. 也许你会认为我这样做有点直接, 稍把事情夸大了,可是我无法再板着一幅若无其事的样子, 戴上假面具, 装着什么事都没发生.

我并不会责怪任何人. 如果要论谁对谁错, 把一切的责任都归咎于我吧. 是不争气的我让过去成为我现在承担的累赘, 给自己栽下了炸药, 间接让对方承担了不必要的负荷.

Work hard!

2008-11-16T15:05:00.002+08:00

才华是刀刃, 辛苦是磨刀石.不能再贪玩了, 一定要不断鞭策自己, 让自己更努力, 更有动力. 繁杂琐碎的事暂时全抛在脑后.

这件事没有正确或所谓的应对方式. 让时间见证一切吧. 人们常说幸福就把握在自己的手中, 难道他们什么顾虑都没吗?

PersonalDNA

2008-11-13T18:22:00.005+08:00

This is the personalDNA results i got from facebook. Haha. By mousing over any part of the box or strip, u will be able to see more about the traits that the colors represent.

Bday story

2008-11-11T23:24:00.002+08:00

I was flipping thru my file when a piece of paper dropped out. haha. I realise its the 'story' that my ese gang wan to dedicate to me on during chem lecture on my bday but ended up unable to. Ship's lecture overshot:(
To show my appreciation for the effort, I shall type wad they(more specifically chee yong bah) wrote for me. haha.

"19 years and a month ago, a couple embark on an experiment at night. By accident or what, their experiment got too vigorous and the rate of reaction went too fast. As such, an effective collision occur, and probably an accidental product was formed/ a temporary, high energy chemical species was formed.
19 years and 9 months later, which is today, is the anniversary of this accidental product (I wonder what it means by accidental product. I m not born by accident k!) Can i request everyone to sing the bday girl a bday song since she is not celebrating it today and no one have sang the song to her yet." Erikahuay. The name they gave me. LOL.

2008-11-02T15:45:00.001+08:00

I feel so noob. I only knew recently that there is this system in some countries. I din know they do alter time as they desire.lol.

Daylight saving time (DST; also, summer time in British English) is the convention of advancing clocks so that afternoons have more daylight and mornings have less. Typically clocks are adjusted forward one hour near the start of spring and are adjusted backward in autumn. Modern DST was first proposed in 1907 by the English builder William Willett. Many countries have used it since then; details vary by location and change occasionally.

Trapped in lift?

2008-11-01T23:38:00.005+08:00

I recieved this email so i shall share this info. Its teaches u wad u should do in order to save urself when u r trapped in a lift and de lift is swiftly plunging like nobody's business. For those who dislikes reading chinese, hmm.. too bad. haha.

搭乘電梯-看完之後請廣為轉寄…功德無量

誰也不知道意外何時發生 , 發生時也或許會慌亂忘記 , 不過多點知識也不錯噢！

搭乘電梯 -
看完之後請廣為轉寄...功德無量

為了自己，為了朋友，為了親人

有一天搭乘電梯，就遇上了電梯突然斷電，雖然緊急供電系統幾秒後就開始作用，可是電梯還是從 13 樓迅速往下墬。還好當時記起曾經看過電視教的，趕快把每一層樓的按鍵都按下，好在電梯在五樓終於停止了 ,.. 真的有撿回一條命的感覺！

當你面臨生死一線間時，當下的你所做的每一個動作將決定你的生死與否。生活中，難免會坐到電梯，但是！萬一遇到電梯發生事故，迅速往下墜落時，你可能只有一個念頭：「站在電梯裡準死定了！.... 」

可是今天 .....
我在電視的一個外國頻道看到一個非常好的節目。其中，他們還請了專家示範電梯下墜時保護自己的最佳動作：

第一、 ( 不論有幾層樓 )
趕快把每一層樓的按鍵都按下。

第二、如果電梯有手把，一隻手緊握手把。

第三、整個背部跟頭部緊貼電梯內牆，呈一直線。

第四、膝蓋呈彎曲姿勢。

說明：因為電梯下墜時，你不會知道它會何時著地，且墜落時很可能會全身骨折而死。

所以：
第一點 --
是當緊急電源啟動時，電梯可以馬上停止繼續下墜。

第二點 --
是為了要固定你人所在的位子，以致於你不會因為重心不穩而摔傷。

第三點 --
是為了要運用電梯牆壁作為脊椎的防護。

第四點 --
是最重要的是因為韌帶是唯一人體富含彈性的一個組織，所以借用膝蓋彎曲來承受重擊壓力，比骨頭來承受壓力來的大。

這個資訊絕不虛構，我個人覺得相當重要，想讓
大家都知道，以防萬一。

為了自己，為了朋友，為了親人... 花 5 分鐘轉寄一下吧！

Full moon

2008-11-01T12:49:00.004+08:00

Halloween is just over likedat. No celebrations. nth. The news made it seem like the celebrations over at de Western countries are lots of fun! A farm transformed into a spooky place.

Yay. I bought a french horn hp accessory. Its so cute. Haha. I have nvr tot i would be so obsessed with de instrument that i have played. I guess 6 yrs of playing experience makes it hard to forget abt my instrument totally. lol.

Anyway since i have put up the song "Eternal Snow", might as well put up the english lyrics of it too. Haha. This song is from the anime "Full moon wo Sagashite". about a 12 year old gal who only has 1 yr to live and has yet to fulfill her dream of being a singer. With the help of the 2 Shinigamis, she was transformed into a 16 year old gal to realise her goal within this short span of 1 yr. Anime rated #4 out of the top 200 in animenfo. haha.

Eternal Snow
How long has it been since I fell in love with you?
My feelings only increase
Will you notice them
Even though I've never once put them into words?

Like the snow, they just
Quietly keep accumulating

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you- my tears won't stop
And so I wish
That I had never met you

How long will I be thinking of you?
My sighs fogged up the window glass

Can a candle flame
Still melt my trembling heart?

Hold me tight, tight enough to break me
So that even in an icy wind or a blizzard
I won't feel cold
I miss you- every time I think of you
Tonight, too, I hold
This half-finished muffler, all alone

If there was an eternally falling snow
Could it hide my feelings for you?

Hold me tight- if this is how it feels
I didn't want to know
What it was like to be in love with someone
I love you- the feeling wells up in my chest
I want to shout to the wintery sky
"I want to see you right now"

I sense something is not quite right. Maybe its a sign that i shouldnt cling on to it.

Dedicated to my bro

2008-10-28T09:54:00.005+08:00

I wonder how is my bro doing there. Making frens? Managed to enjoy himself even though NS is termed as hell by some?

Will i start to miss him? No one to bicker with me? Crap with me? Tolerate the incessant nagging of our parents together? No one to speak in english with me(actually speaking bad things)in front of my mum(cos her vocab is limited)when her nagging gets intolerable? Discussing about animes tgt? Him always saying there are gals interested in him? No one to save the comp if it's suddenly down(though i m being taught alot of stuffs by him le)? Him rushing to the door to tell me somethg interesting when i have just reached home and havent even step into de house? Someone to tolerate my lame jokes and retarded actions when i m bored(agreeing with me that i shld go hougang chalet)? Haha. I speak as if he is going far far away.

I m looking forward to the day when he becomes more mature. His immaturity annoys me sometimes. Oops.

i onna ni wa i otoko! (When there are good women, there are good men:))

2008-10-25T01:09:00.005+08:00

My anime cravings are really coming back after many weeks of not watching. And in view of the public holiday, i couldnt resist my temptation to watch them. Several sequels to the animes that i have watched previously were out. This shows how long i havent been catching up:(

Sequels:
Vampire Knight Guilty
Shugo Chara Doki
Allison to Lilia
Clannad After Story

Ima sugu kimi ni aitai yo

2008-10-24T12:31:00.002+08:00

HSM 3 is finally out! haha. One of my fav genre of movies is musical:) Havent watch mamma mia but will catch it soon. Sometimes u just have to put studies aside for awhile, otherwise u wun be able to enjoy urself. Overexpansion of brain will lead to explosion! haha. I m soo busy for de past few weeks dat i dun even feel like blogging. SS presentation is over! Just one more lab to go!

Haha. My ex-exmployer contacted me to ask me when is my vacation so that can ask me go back and work. Sometimes it just feels good that ur ability is being recognised and they still rmb u:)

Gals dun make simple things complicated k. It shows we do think. haha.

2 months in uni

2008-10-14T20:55:00.004+08:00

One more week gone. This reminds me how fast final exams are approaching. I m lagging! Only two months since uni started have passed rite but how come de dreadful exams again:(

Thanks to camwarriors, more specifically nana and yh for the surprising move though it wasnt somethg totally new. Breadtalk matcha cake was nice. haha. But of cos it wasnt de cake that makes the most difference. It was ur presence that lifted up my gloomy spirit for the whole nite. Zr must faster come back so that we can have a complete camwarriors outing! haha.

'Connected' was pretty interesting and action-packed movie. Next time cannot anyhow hang up the phone le! haha. Xy, first time watching movie with u bah though we have known each other for nearly 7 years.

It is not new to hear the saying, 'Somethg that is constant is change.' It's frustrating not to see change when u r in a frustrating situation.

Busy?? haha.

2008-10-12T01:31:00.003+08:00

This week has been a 'busy' week. But not bcos of studies. Thats de worse part. haha. Bday dinners. Now even the 'boyboy' jason is 21! But he doesnt look like one:( Can i act emo so that i get free oreo cheesecake? haha. 进猪笼! Movie outings. And super random stuffs. Even if i had the free time i wun be doing somethg productive. haha. It has been a tiring yet fun packed week. Not entirely though.

I feel that my brain is being overworked. Thats why even if i had de time i wun be mugging. I have been thinking too much.

张韶涵的<<不想懂得>>!

"我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼"

Haha. Still one of my favs.

Bday

2008-10-06T21:51:00.012+08:00

Haha. O tanjobi yo omedeto! To myself. haha. Thanks to EVERYONE who wished me happy bday! Camwarriors:) Special mention to zr bah. Msg me from Aust. Dont think u can get away from jumbo treat just like dat. Haha. And my sot sisters cliques from vj. And beloved ice cream gang. No matter how late isit.. Its better late den nvr:) cos i m always late for everythg anyway.

Omg la.. See wad this bunch of siao ESE kia wrote to me. Thanks for de super chocolate-ty cake. I m so pure and innocent k. Horny, naughty, kinky or r21 dun suit me at all! I where got 色!!! And cheeyong claims hes de organiser. lol. Thank god din put anythg camo cream on me. Sure kanna piak by me de lor if u all did that. Wadever is cuddle or sayang. eewww.

Thanks to yl and shar for always being there for me. No matter high or low. Shar ar.. Dont snatch my laogong from me k. Kisses and huggies:) Ur laptop bag action really shocked me. Luckily my heart can tahan. Stunned. haha.

Xy, meet u soon k!

Watashi daijiobu ka? saa....

Prisoner of love

2008-10-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

I m starting to rmb this drama again. Utada hikaru is so cool!

Prisoner of Love - Utada Hikaru

2008-10-01T19:19:00.000+08:00

Whatever the results may be, I only have myself to blame for not putting in enough efforts. Stop the unnecessary ponning and slacking!

Itazura na kiss!

2008-09-26T13:31:00.007+08:00

Itazura na Kiss! イタズラなKiss One of the rare animes that will touch on pre and post marriage life. Haha. A little bit of the plot : Itazura na Kiss tells the love story of Kotoko and Naoki from their days as high school students to their marriage. The story continues after the marriage as they continue to grow as a couple. The story starts with Kotoko finally building up the courage to confess to Naoki Irie by giving him a love letter but was rejected in front of everybody. After that humiliating moment, she decided to give up on her love for Naoki. That same day, the Aihara's newly-built home was destroyed during a mild earthquake due to poor construction. They ended up staying in the Irie household thus starting the development of their relationship. Add-on: The daughter is soo cute. Same pattern as the mum but not that clumsy. lol.

One of the few animes that will make me tear and smile. 在恋爱时的无奈, 得不到回应时那心如刀割的感觉, 付出的一切却不被放在眼里那让人心寒的剧情. 但是现在不一样了, 是为她喜及而泣哦.所以说不管是多冷血, 凡事都漠不关心的人, 总有一天是会被真诚感动的. 真诚啊, 看似简单的词, 却有如此大的威力:)

Special A has come to an end. An anime with absolute fun. A little bit about it: Hikari Hanazono has always been second to Kei Takishima. When they were six years old, their pro-wrestling loving fathers introduced them to each other. Assuming that she was the best in wrestling, young Hikari challenged Kei to a wrestling match only to be thoroughly defeated by him. Ever since that fateful incident, Hikari swore to beat Kei in school grades, sporting events - anything. To do this, she has enrolled in the same school as Kei since elementary. Now she attends Hakusenkan, an ultra elite school, that costs her carpenter father a lot of money. Hikari and Kei are the top two students in the school, with Kei holding firmly to that number one position. While Hikari considers Kei to be a rival and important friend, she is completely unaware that Kei loves her. The story primarily focuses on Hikari and her constant attempts to defeat her one and only rival, Kei, and how she finds love in their rivalry.

I like how slow and dense Hikari is when it comes to love. Her reaction and expression towards everything is the best! Energetic and kindhearted:)

New stuffs to watch next on list:
Dramas: Liar Game(Toda Erika), Code Blue(Yamapi and Toda Erika), Shibatora (Teppei). () means the actors/actresses that attracted me to the dramas. haha.
Animes: Soul eater.
More time for me to watch please. Deprived of dramas for months le:(

I should be mugging but yet i m watching anime. Omg..... Crap.

2008-09-21T11:44:00.003+08:00

I realise i m not pedophilic. I am jap-philic. As long as it's jap i high liaoo. hehe. Target: Waseda Shibuya Senior High Sch and Jap Pri Sch! Learning jap plan is on! Found so many companions le. laogong aka les partner, seawalk, red ranger, seetoh. hee. Dun need to worry that we cant find ppl to converse with le.

I m thinking of jumbo seafood again. Drooling. All the best for zr! When u come back as a pilot, rmb what u promised us during sakae dinner on fri can liaoo. haha. Promise is a promise wor. We want our jumbo treat.

Jap sch!

2008-09-19T11:12:00.004+08:00

Someday I hope to be able to go to the jap pri opposite nus! Everytime when i alight from bus 188, I will certainly turn my head towards de sch direction. The little kids there are sooooo cute. If u let me go in, don't worry. Jie jie wun bully u all de. haha. 日本人の子供わ可愛いです！ I repeat again. I m not pedophilic!

Btw i really have to control the amount of msg i use. First time in my life that it broke the 1000 mark and to be exact, its close to 1.3k. Initally when emily told me her msg for a particular mth overshot to 1.3k i dun believe it so i decided to experiment it myself. Din expect it to overshoot. 1k free sms still can bao. lol.

Get a life?

2008-09-17T23:11:00.007+08:00

Look at the previous entry in bold! 'Disappointment, sadness looming in the air' Dedicated to thousands stalks of flower.

One down and temporary i m feeling relieved. haha. One of the midterms is over! lalala~ dun care how i score le. Dun fail can liaooo. haha. Who ask me to keep ponning or coming late for chem tut. lol.

Last wkend i managed to celebrate moooncake fest cos i missed de celebration last yr due to prelims or A level prep. Can't rmb le. Someone hor. Too long never play with sparklers b4 and ended up clearing almost of the sparklers when lighting up the first sparklers. Mini explosion (Luckily my face wasnt that near or else i dunno wad will happen. U have to be responsible le. lol.) Let me tell u how it happened. All sparked bcos we act pro, opening up the whole packet and taking out everythg and dat someone went to light up the first sparkler near the others. Quite idiotic lor. Chem H3 somemore. haha. Initally still tot too many but end up clearing it in less den 1 min. Shant mention the name otherwise de person will paiseh. lol. But thanks la. Dont say i no 人情味。It was quite fun.

My uni mates were saying going to chiong after midterms. They so on lar but isit okay to be having fun so early? If do badly still will have mood to go mah? Anyway wad they mean by go chiong is go clubbing. Don't xiang y y. lol.

Recess week is next wk. Sounds like a wk break on de surface when in fact i need to mug for the midterms for 3 more mods, 1 lab report and a 2000 words essay:( Jiayou jiahui! lol.

2008-09-12T20:46:00.004+08:00

Midterms are coming! Essay deadline is approaching. What am i doing? haha. Weird is i m not feeling very very stressed as i tot i would. Maybe it's bcos i m surrounded by so many fun things that overwhelm all the stressful and unhappy things. Work hard and play hard. Outstanding, outperforming and out having fun! VJC! haha. Oops now should be NUS.

Life is not always miserable so those who are emo-ing, stop it. lol. Or else will kanna suan de. 'Can there be happiness?' 'Why is life so cruel to the tiny me?' haha. I think i very bad. Dedicated to seawalk!

Though i m stressed by the academics part, all the chim chim theory and stuffs, I am still enjoying uni life:)

Lastly, I got into CLP, one of the programme i applied for. haha. I was scared that i would falter during the interview.

疲れた。。。

2008-09-07T01:23:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. Maybe i should just change my blog title to 'Temporary not in service'. lol. I am starting to feel the stress from the taxing uni life. Fun and interesting yet at same time, exhausting. Busy or rather lazy to cr8 post. Maybe wait till i have totally adapted to life in uni. I am being kiasu to buy so many textbooks. lol. Ganbate!

I will treasure the kimizora book that i bought from kinokuniya. Same author as the one who wrote koizora. I bet it will be nice.

人心不足蛇吞象, 难道我要累坏自己才甘愿吗? 明知自己不是万能的机器人, 却什么都不肯放下. 如果我成功被录取的话，就会给自己增添多一样我必须劳心劳力的事，到时候我应该放弃哪一样？

友谊是每一个人生命中不可缺少的．

2008-08-30T01:56:00.003+08:00

我已经搞清楚状况了, 可是现在的状况又会是怎样? 以往的事情已足以带给我阴影. 算了, 想太多只会杀死更多脑细胞.

2008-08-28T01:28:00.002+08:00

Busy, busy, busy... Lab and tut are sure torturous. haha. Jiayou!

不论是什么事, 都必须要搞清楚状况, 不然错误就会重蹈覆辙. 一次的错误已足以把我惊醒, 我不会再重犯. 一切还在我的掌控之中.

2008-08-15T14:18:00.010+08:00

Sch started on mon. And one week is going to be over soon which is fast. haha. Carrying a bag with notes seem to be somethg dat was nearly long long ago until sch started ago. Sitting in the LT and trying to focus and concentrate on what the lecturer is trying to say is hard. Esp when the lecturer is prc or klk (stands for kay leng kia meaning indians). oops. My og ppl very R de lo. O rather r^2. haha. Racist and R21. haha. I think that's the difference between uni and jc bah. When my frens wan to crack jokes, they gan gan lai de. Its really to a higher level. I realise that in engin, there is a higher tendency for u to hang ard guys more den gals cos we have no choice. haha. Not to say there is somethg wrong la. But their jokes can really be very evil de and i m scared my brain will be polluted by them. But they are a fun bunch of ppl. haha. Knowing ppl from ur own course and having them sit beside u during lectures though they might be abit noisy sometimes is alot better den not knowing anyone and sitting alone. I m still not in de study mood. Cham liao. Btw having 5 digits in the bank account is super shiok though i know soon it will go back to 4 digit after sch fees are being deducted. haha.

I know last week my chess camp og ppl including me are quite evil or more accurately, bastards. lol. We go o week when we feel like going and pon when we think it would be boring. One good example is the flag day. We pon dat totally and had our kbox cum movie session. lol. On sentosa day, in order to stay as tgt as possible, we leave our o week's og and crash other og with our ice cream ppl inside. lol. Halfway continued our own activity of birthday bash. Koping a game station's camo cream just to bua it on the bday gal. The whole o week ice cream gang is like always tgt. We didnt even try to know our o wk og ppl. lol. Considered ON or NOT on? lol.

比起在坦白之前那份愧疚与不安的感觉, 坦白说出来之后的心情当然是好多了. 错在于我,而不在于你. 一直处于漂浮不定状态的我是这件事的起因.

Patience is a virtue.. and i m waiting. Futari no jikan o, kami-sama, tomete yo.

我今天的脾气怎么这么暴躁, 我到底在和谁呕气,在和自己吗? 我似乎对自己所做的一切都感到不满, 我到底是怎么了. 莫名产生了一种窝囊的感觉. 冷静冷静. 也许只是生理在某些时候所产生的自然反应.

拜托拜托, 不要让我再陷进同样的烂泥里.

2008-08-01T11:53:00.003+08:00

This week sure is a bz week. I keep chionging from places to places. LIke mon. Welcome tea session in de morn den halfway, chiong to BCA Academy with another scholar. Tues. Go all the way to MND (Ministry of National Development) for an interview and who would have expected it to be a video interview. But still managed to get thru it without fainting. I only realise it ytd. During the interview i forgot to thk my sponsor CDL.Oops. Where got scholar as evil as me de. Wed is my matriculation fair but b4 i have de time to idle in NUS i need to chiong to vj to be de scholarship ambassador and unexpectedly bump into zr there and for some photoshoot with all de barang barang i got from the fair. Only then i found out photoshoot can be so tiring. Ytd which is a thurs. I tot i can just slack at home. Only to find out stupid NUS admin still put my name under chem eng and my grouping still under chem eng. My pre allocated modules also screwed up. Bo bian has to go all de way down to NUS to settle after several futile attempts to contact de admin. B4 i went NUS, i went white sands to see de mini IT fair. Luckily at least i saw a lappie dat i interested in. The lappie dat NUS is introducing to the students far exceeds our needs and i dun think i need such a good lappie to study. Dedicated gaming lappie is not really impt to me. As long as can watch animes and dramas with rather good graphics can ler. haha. Lastly, it's today. The day. Award ceremony. I might get an opportunity to be interviewed. That's what i m told. Should i pray that i get a chance to be interviewed or not to be? I m so humji de. haha. Just hope if i do, de press dun be too evil to me. haha.

2008-07-26T03:19:00.008+08:00

Oops.. I realise i forgot to mention about my og name. It's ice cream. But anyway a name is just a title and i like my og alot. They are very ON de. haha. Esp when i get to know more env engin ppl thru it. Still got an ah kor who will purposely let me win minesweeper and still claim that i won bcos i m pro. lol. And a buddy who will go and look out for cute guys perhaps in sci fac with me. haha. Steady hor. Both of them are env engin or ESE de. hee.

现在我对'苦尽甘来'或'雨后春笋'这些成语或许有了更深一层的体会. 人生不会一直处于低潮的, 而这一点对于经过亲身体验的我让我无法不同意这说法. 人生确实是有了小小的改变, 但不至于是个转捩点. 以前我无法感受到的一些许东西, 我现在感受到了一些些, 甚至让我感到有一点内疚. 无可否认的就是, 人心不足蛇吞象. 对于我在过程中所忽略的一些人, 在此想表示一下我的歉意. 我其实想知道你最近过得怎样.

2008-07-25T13:45:00.001+08:00

I will try my best for the interview and not throw my own sponsor's face :) Must do homework liaoo.

Anyway since yh got mention in my tag, i shall type it in jap haha.. with the help of the window's jap lang bar. 君わ私の特別の人。永遠。。。 Haha. Not that difficult to understand hor. Anyway its just a random jap sentence i formed. Not meant for any gossips. lol.

2008-07-22T12:58:00.003+08:00

School is starting real soon. haha. Getting more and more excited liao. Last time uni life seems soo far away and the word 'uni' just sounds very scary. But now, i just think that campus life will be full of fun and crazy days, but also cannot neglect de studies la. Uni is like de last phase of education, so must make de best out of it. My pre-uni life which is the Chess camp i went to, made me look forward to uni more. haha. Don't waste my time! This is very serious. Need to call in police liao. - insider joke. lol. Lazy to upload photos. haha.

Kimi wa watashi no tokubetsu no hito. Eien.... If i type this, very few ppl will know what it means, but when i type it in jap, i guess ppl who knows chinese will understand this sentence due to the kanji. haha. I wan to learn jap.

2008-07-19T14:04:00.004+08:00

I m back for camp! Had loads of fun. Still tired cos for the 3 nites i only had like 13 hours of sleep.
Main highlights like most uni camps:
Secret pal game (Din manage to talk much to my SP)
Amazing race (aka city hunt) but more of like learning the heritages of sg
Fright nite (Abit too short but its de first fright nite i experienced in camp)
Sentosa games (which i missed like 1/3 of de games)
Station games
Do somethg to the seniors (which i think is quite evil de) esp guy freshies to guy seniors to get more points
DXO (Not all camps have clubbing)
Pageant (which i suay suay kanna)
Learning how to play super lame games (like MRT, black magic, how many meh meh,etc)
Doing cheers that are super high and qian bian
Watching ppl do very embarrassing forfeits that will make ppl xiang Y Y de

Most importantly, my og won the best og title! haha. We very on de k. Action no. 5: Don't waste my time!